It's funny, you can't see why things are happening until after they happen

We THOUGHT Jeff was going to be sent with the military to Germany for a year. I had really struggled with this idea. After a lot of thought and prayer, we decided it would be in our family's best interest to quit our jobs a few months before Jeff headed off and just spend that time together. So, I put my notice in, and had a really hard time with it. I felt that I would miss working because I LOVE my job.
My last day of work came and went far more quickly than I could have imagined. I thought my last day would bring a lot of emotions and it would be hard for me. As I drove home after work, I suddenly felt invigorated, relieved and just SO optimistic for the future. I was finally going to do what I have always dreamed of, being a stay-at-home mommy to my girls. I knew I was doing the right thing, leaving work was NOT hard, not even a little bit.

The very next day my husband received a call from his unit. He was told that Germany was off. Of course I was happy, I wouldn't have to be without my sweet husband for a whole year, our girls wouldn't have to be without their daddy for a whole year. Unfortunately my happiness lasted about 30 minutes and then became tainted with a little pessimism.

I had just quit my job, Jeff quit his job as well! We now have NO source of income, we wouldn't be able to save for the year he was gone. Jeff is starting PT school and all we have is what little savings that remains in the bank. I couldn't figure it out. I had prayed, and felt good about my decision to quit my job. I was doubting my ability to receive answers to my prayers. Maybe I am not as in tune as I thought I was. I thought I felt good about it, but now I wasn't sure. I had some serious doubts in myself
Of course I had to ponder over these thing and this is the conclusion I came to:

EVERYTHING was lined up for me to quite my job. I would have never dreamed of quitting my job if I hadn't thought Jeff was going to Germany, would not have dreamed of it. I even put 2 months notice in just in case something happened with the mobilization, and I could ask to keep my job.
The two months passed, and I was done working. I felt GREAT. Is it coincidence that the VERY NEXT DAY Jeff learned he was no longer to go to Germany? I don't think so. I think there was a reason I didn't not find out in the two months prior to this. Somehow I know I was supposed to leave that job. I don't know why, and for now we will be living on student loans. Every time we buy food, we go deeper and deeper into debt.

I know this: loans can be paid of, but time with my children is irreplaceable. This is what I'm supposed to do. I didn't expect it but somehow I KNOW, that there was some divine intervention. We will be poor in terms of finances over the next few years BUT we are so very rich in the ways that matter.
I have two beautiful, funny girls and a wonderful husband. I get to be with my kids all of the time now. What a blessing it is.


Life being a mommy, without the interruptions of work will be a BLAST and I'm excited to begin this new adventure.